Ahah!

Ever have one of those ahah! moments? Well lucky for me I had two today. The first happened this morning waiting for the train. I looked to my right and rather than seeing some stranger waiting for the same train I saw one of the saddest things ever. Gazing at her frizzy hair, dry, wrinkled hands clutching a coffee in her jeweled fingers I felt as though I could tell you her whole life. Mother of three, no time for herself (hence the frizzy hair), suspects husband of infidelity, etc. I took my seat on the train and continued to think about the life this woman had led. I was determined to not make the same (presumed) mistakes. I began loathing my job, hating the fact that I have become a creature of habit, content to wake up early, commute, stop at the same Starbucks as the day before, without second guessing a single move. I knew I didn't want to end up like that woman-50 something, bored, with nothing but an unhappy marriage, kids and stretch marks to show for the last 30 years. I knew I had to make some life changes.

After hours of sitting at my desk and hating my life I left to grab some lunch. Passing by FAO Schwartz I couldn't help but notice the doorman. Dressed in some ridiculous nutcracker ensemble most likely chosen by someone who has never had to open a door for themselves their whole life, the doorman looked almost as miserable as me! It was then that this second ahah! moment occurred. It could always be a lost worse...